Sunday, June 17, 2012

Just Roll With It


May and June are my last 2 months here in Togo, and as part of me feels like I’m speeding along the road with my sight set on the US and the future, another part feels like my speeding is out of control and I only have short term vision- just looking at one bump in the road right in front of me.  Because, when you have so much going on around you here in Togo, how can you focus on your future in the US, which seems like a world away?  Anyway, many days these two aspects seem to be colliding, and I can just sortof roll with it.

MAY 1st: LABOR DAY
Labor Day, like last year, was a super holiday.  Everyone loves labor day here.  The whole town and nearby surrounding villages come to Kante to participate in a parade, which features practically every single person- every ethnic group, every village, every organization and group no matter how active or inactive, marches across the soccer field.  People dance, people drink, and people eat.  Everyone gets together with their coworkers and feasts.  If an “office” is going all out, everyone will buy the same fabric and make outfits to wear for this day, so that everyone in the “office” has the same uniform.  I arrived at the soccer field late, hoping that I wouldn’t be as noticed as usual, and avoiding any “waiting for hours and marching across the soccer field in the hot sun” that may be expected.  But, of course I was not unnoticed, being the only white person there, but luckily no one asked me to participate in the parade.  Instead, I spoiled my friend’s daughter, buying her a bag of cold juice and letting her take a couple pictures.  Then, we met up with my friend and the other staff members of AED to eat and drink and dance.  After we were stuffed, I went with another friend to a bar where more people were dancing.  A group of older women were going from table to table, dancing the traditional dance.  An older lady, her face lined with wrinkles, pulled me from my chair and into the dancing group.  She started doing the traditional dance, characterized by really quick, almost jumping, movements, with arms going in various directions.  Then she stopped while I tried to mimic her moves, and as I stopped she started again.  We went on like this for a while, with the group of ladies cheering us on;  It was almost like a dance off – although I’m certain she won. 

COS CONFERENCE and GOODBYEs
Close of Service “COS” is the final step of a Peace Corps Volunteer’s service.  It stands, ominously or impatiently (depending on the day), at the end of your service like the ribbons of a finish line.  When you’re having a bad day, you fantasize about the day you COS and return to America.  When you’re having a good day, you consider extending, pushing your COS date into the future, so that you can stay in Togo forever-or just longer.  So, when COS Conference arrived, everyone was in a strange limbo, ready to leave Togo and go home, but at the same time not ready to leave Togo and go home.  During the conference, we had sessions about job-hunting, resumes, and all the paperwork that must be done before you leave the country.  It was so a wake-up call to reality: that, whether we like it or not, we will be leaving our little communities in Togo- and returning to the US to face our dreams(friends, family, food…), and our forgotten responsibilities (9-5 jobs, resumes, health insurance..).  COS conference was the last time we were all together as a group- and following the conference, people started to trickle out of Togo.  We had already said goodbye to Stacie with a rice castle vs. bottlesaurus party, and we began to say goodbye to others, who we may or may not see again.

PROMOHANDICAP – PUMP
I am totally in love with this PromoHandicap project; Actually, I have a love hate relationship with it.  Hate, because all the little Togo things that are bound to go wrong and make things difficult seem to be magnified when you’re actually trying to manage something you really care about.  And Love, because everyone in the PromoHandicap team is amazing, and going through every part of this project together-both frustrations and joys- has brought me to my favorite parts of Togo.  The first part of the project involves all the health aspects of the school (building a water pump for water access, building a shower are for personal hygiene, and latrines for- obvious other hygiene.  Although we started this project for the school and the students who are deaf and blind, we have found that there is a huge secondary (unintentional but greatly needed) community who will benefit: the people of Deoute, where the school will be built.  The families of Deoute are textbook examples of poverty and all the health and other negative aspects that go with it.  The chief lives in a mud hut, with two wives and about 13 young children.  The kids have swollen bellies and some have bald spots, skin rashes, and reddish hair along with their scrawny faces, arms, and legs.  The dogs are tiny, almost like toys, and incredibly skinny.  Dirt is everywhere and the naked kids, when not playing with the dirty dogs or machetes or whatever else they can find, just sit and hang out in the dirt, watching us as we come to discuss plans with their father, the chief.  The older children walk away to pee and poop, but the youngest of them usually just goes wherever he is, whether it’s on the flat rock where they prepare food, or in the middle of the meeting area.  Their water comes from the muddy stream nearby, and I mentally cringe every time his wife brings out a cup of water, hoping I won’t be expected to drink it.  So, when the team of water pump technicians began the construction of a water pump (after an insane amount of delay), I was thrilled.  Now, this community (as well as the future PromoHandicap school) will have access to clean water.  Little by little, I hope this project will bring benefits to Deoute.  A week or so after they finished construction, we inaugurated the pump.  Everyone- women, men, children, dogs- brought benches and chairs and came to the pump to celebrate.  Alisha and I talked about hygiene and did a couple hygiene activities with them, and then we talked about how to use and care for the pump, and then everyone said a million thank yous to everyone else, before drinking tchouk (local beer) and celebrating till dusk arrived.  

PROMOHANDICAP- building SHOWERs
My alarm has been set for 4:50AM for a couple weeks now.   Every morning I’ve gotten up, had some coffee (while reviewing MCAT stuff), and then admired the sunrise while biking off to Deoute, the small village where we will be constructing the school.  One of these mornings I arrived to find that the promised sand had not yet been ramassed by the community, and the construction team who arrived shortly after and who needed sand to make bricks, would not be able to start.  We went to the talk to the chief and after a lot of discussion and questioning realized that the early rainy season this year meant that everyone spent all their time in the fields farming; no one had time to get sand.  It was obvious that my schedule (I had to finish the shower construction soooon since I would be leaving Togo soon) did not correlate with their schedule at all, which is fine, but incredibly frustrating.  So, after freaking out a bit, Tcheou (the president of promohandicap) grabbed a bucket and headed to the stream, ready to collect sand.  We all followed, and soon our group of five collected enough sand  to get the construction team started.  But it is seriously hard work! – it doesn’t sound difficult- walking a quarter mile to the stream, filling a bucket with sand, placing it on your head so that it hurts least, and then walking back-but over and over again it starts to get painful!  (we later did this with really big bricks- which was the worst- at one point I dropped my brick and it was too heavy to pick back up by myself)  But, call me crazy- but part of me actually really enjoyed this part- I felt like I was really involved and determined- “I am going to get this school built if I need to carry every last brick there on my own head”  of course, I also think we may have been delirious from fatigue, as Alisha and I kept on laughing randomly as we were walking. 

TOGO IS KICKING ME OUT
The past couple weeks, everything I own has become broken or lost.  Maybe not everything, but certainly enough to catch my attention.  First, my refrigerator broke.  No big deal, everyone lives without a refrigerator, and I mainly just use it during hot season or when I have veggies that tend to spoil.  Then, the screen on my camera broke.  After 2 years and much abuse by everyone, the screen suddenly broke when I sat on it.  But, it still worked- I just couldn’t see the pictures I was taking.  Then- in one week, I lost my computer cord, lost my phone charger, my camera completely broke, and my gas (for cooking) ran out.  Luckily I was able to trace my computer cord back to a town in the south and with the help of some other peace corps volunteers, was able to get it back.  But, my gas is a pretty significant thing to run out.  My neighbors, more often than not, share their food with me, but never on a schedule.  Previously, if they shared their food, I would eat that, and if they didn’t, I would cook something.  But now, I need to plan ahead and by street food if I think they won’t share that meal.  It often ends up being that I buy street food on the days when they share food, so I end up eating 2 dinners and going to sleep stuffed beyond capacity, or I won’t by street food and they won’t share, so I go to sleep slightly hungry.  There is no medium.  As I’m writing this, I’m hoping they have extra corn mush pate to share, because there was a huge thunderstorm, so there are no street vendors selling street food.  If not I will just eat some amazing granola bars that my amazing parents sent – THANK YOU!!!   

RAINY SEASON with GOATS
Rainy season came early this year, with giant storms soaking Kante in May, as opposed to last year’s mid-late June.  The first storms are like a memory – a friend you haven’t seen or heard from in awhile.  The distance noise of rain smacking tin roofs from across town, and then the sudden strong winds that slam doors shut and cause everyone to run to the nearest shelter, all leading up to the downpour- so loud that your voice can’t be heard and so fast that you can fill up a 15 liter bucket with rain water in a matter of minutes.  This year, my neighbors have begun raising goats, so there are always baby goats running and  jumping around.  If I’m not paying attention, one will just come right into my house while I’m working.  When the rains come, the goats completely freak out.  They start sprinting in all directions, screaming like toddlers in the midst of a temper tantrum, in an effort to escape rainstorm, that I’m convinced they imagine to be the end of the world.  The kids in the compound have the responsibility to ensure all the goats get into this small shelter during the rainstorm.  But the goats, not realizing they have their own rain shelter, sprint around the compound like a chicken with its head cut off, eventually aiming for any kind of shelter they can find, often my house.  The kids are sprinting after them, jumping and lunging, trying to grab a leg or torso, before the downpour starts.  Sometimes they catch one, bring it to the goat shelter, only to have the goat run away again, leading to another extreme game of “catch the goat”.  If the kids have no luck at all, like today, the downpour will start before all the goats are caught, and they will be forced to chase the goats in the pouring rain.

WHOA MY CAT JUST JUMPED SUPER HIGH AND CAUGHT A MOTH IN MID-FLIGHT!

TCHEOU’s WIFE
Tcheou, the incredibly motivated president of PromoHandicap is one of the most amazing Togolese men I know.  He is respectful to women, believing that we (women) are smart and useful beyond just cooking and cleaning.  In fact, his daughter is the top of her class in the physics and mathematics track!  This is amazing, because girls are soo underrepresented in the science/math area.  Most teachers automatically just put them in the arts/linguistics tracks.  Of course this is not bad in itself, but a girl should be given the opportunity to pursue science if she wants.  Anyway, his daughter wants to be a physics professor and I am so proud of her.  Anyway, the other day, Alisha called me, saying that Tcheou’s wife had been struck by a car and was in the hospital.  She has a head injury and two completely broken ankles that require surgery to be fixed. 

GIRLS SCHOLARSHIP
Like I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I’ve been working with Shippensburg University Honors Program.  They raised $1300 just to help girls succeed in education in Kante!  With this support, we were able to create a high school girls scholarship for this coming school year, as well as buy some well-needed books and notebooks to help them study.  Each girl interested in the program wrote an essay about what their dream is.  There were so many different responses:  mid-wife, physics professor, flight attendant, international business woman, religious sister, teachers, researchers….   There was enough money that all the girls who applied were able to receive the scholarship, and there will be money left over.  So, at the commencement of the school year, if a girl who has need wants to enter high school, she be able to talk to another peace corps volunteer here and get financial assistance.            

PREPARING FOR HOME
So, I go home on July 6.  It’s weird.  I have a plan, but at the same time feel like everything in my plan is a priority and feel like om sprinting from one thing to the next in an effort to ensure everything will be ok.  First of all, I’m taking my dog Poppy home.  Arriving here, I didn’t think I would ever take a dog home, but after spending every single day – the highest of the days and lowest of the lows - with Poppy, I have become seriously attached, and can’t stand to consider his fate as grilled market meat if I leave him here.  So, it’s been a bit of a nightmare working out a flight to get him home – flights are already confusing and difficult to plan here- where most agencies and airlines only accept cash.  Luckily, I worked it all out, and now just need to get all his shots and stuff a couple days before leaving.  Secondly on my list of “stressed out”-ness is the MCAT.  I’ve been studying basically since I got here, but as the day approaches, and I realize how difficult it is to take online practice exams from Togo- I’ve become stressed.  I’ve realized I’m not used to sitting in front of a computer or thinking of physics/bio for long intense periods of time, and I’m worried how that will affect my performance.  Thirdly – med school appplications.  The applications became available May 31, but it is so annoying and expensive doing everything from Togo…grr..  And finally, job- I need to find some type of work between the time I get home to the time I hopefully enter med school.  So, that’s my list.  I’m stressed with this stuff- I feel like the “US” side of me and the “Togo” side of me has a billion things to do these next couple weeks.  Who knew saying goodbye and saying hello at the same time could be so stressful.  But, I think the most important part is to just realize that these next weeks might be tough and challenging, but exciting - and I’m just going to roll with it.  

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